Anutpattika-dharma-ksanti: the patient endurance of the uncreate
These are the words I shared as a Facebook status update on July 30th, 2011. It is a short line taken from Vimalakirti Nirdesa Sutra which I had been gently pawing at while sitting in the window seat of my Brooklyn Heights apartment melting in the summer heat. I was confused, scared, uncomfortable, and agitated. There was this belief that somehow, someday I could control and enjoy this life but that I was failing in my attempts to do so. Some would say that the persistence of this delusion was astonishing yet I sat there numb, weighed down, and silenced by my restlessness, irritability, and discontent.